THANK GOD MITCH SHOWED UP

OK so yesterdays rant was a little much don't ya think.

I must have been more stressed out then i thought. I'm getting to know that there is more nastiness to being pregnant then i thought.. like the emotions. When i was prego with Jr. I was so mellow and zen it was beautiful.. the house could have burned down around me and i wouldn't have cared.

This time however it's totally different. I'm an emotional basket case. and my mood changes faster then a pendulum on a grandfather clock. The BG thought that he might stop doing the hauls between BC and Alta and come home to be with Jr. I told him to wait till after I'm done with the pregnancy, he asked why. I reminded him of the nasty mood swing i had that morning and then I said to imagine that 7 days a week instead of just two. he agreed that he should stay on the road till i had the baby, and i said that it was safe. Smart man.

Anyway back to the Mitch thing.

So he came out for the long weekend to see Me, the BG and Jr. So I hasn't seen Mitch since Jr. B-day. He told me i looked tired and I said that i didn't get much sleep and explained that i had been up half the night crying and explained the situation, the car, mum and the G&C thing.

Now Mitch had only met G&C a couple of times and wasn't really familiar with them, so basically i was getting an outside perspective on the situation. He looked at me like i was smoking cheap crack. not good expensive crack, the cheep shit that you get from that smelly guy on the corner with the funny eye. It made me realize that this was totally stupid.

so she never calls me again, who cares, its not like i was talking to her everyday anyway. and seriously, If she takes the easy out, how is it really, and i mean really, going to effect my life. Not much, I'm a 1000 miles away. and have been for 3 years. I've had a baby and made new friends. Granted I'm not nearly as close to them as i was to her, but in the end... I'll live... and my days will continue just like they always have, only now i don't have to look at a clock, do a time change and then think, can i call her now or is she taking one of the kids to school. that is pretty much the only difference, one less phone call to make during the day.

nothing will make you think, like a good friend looking at you like your smokin cheep crack to make you think twice about a situation.

I'm off to bed now

TTFN