NOT HAVING A GOOD DAY

Really I'm not.



And they only reason that I'm blogging about this is because I have no one to talk to.



Well the day started out fine and then on the way to Red Deer to get some groceries we where headed to the intersection by Red Deer Power Sports and then the light turned yellow, Sister pushed on the brakes cause we had enough time, and she discovered that she had no brakes. so we had enough time, honked the horn twice, threw on the Hazards and went sailing threw. We stopped a safe distance away in a safe spot too. we figured ti was safe cause a semi was stopped there too...

So please no phone calls. We are fine. we weren't in any danger and the only thing the was slightly injured was sisters nerves. She was shaking something furious after that, and understandably so. Well i called Uncle and asked if he knew any decent Mechanics in Red Deer, unfortunately he didn't so i asked about Canadian tire, he said that it was a decent place and found me the Phone number. Called and talked to them and got an appointment for that evening, called a tow truck to get us there. By the way here comes a shameless plug.. Trio Towing, friendly employee, Clean truck, Prompt service, and decent price. Called them cause that's the number i got from Canadian tire, They quoted me about 25 minutes, he was there within 15, they even called a cab to take sister and the rest of the kids cause they didn't have a truck big enough to haul all of us. Called mum and she came and got me and kids and bought us home and Sister stayed with the car. She just called me at 9:00, it's fixed and she is on her way to find a Tim Horton's.

Then when I got home, I was helping my mum finish packing her house, cause she was moving, and we got into an argument and one thing let to another, and basically i told her where the bear shit in the bush and how to find it, I think she tried to stop the fight by apologizing but i wasn't having any part of it, i was on a rampage. It ended with me telling her to fuck off. and as The Big Guy said later.."oh.. you took it that far." yep i did.. was it a wise decision probably not, but whats done is done and i normally don't look back.

and then there is the G&C thing. we are in the middle of an argument and they think it's about the BG and C and argument that they had, like I care, it's not the first argument and it's not going to be the last, she pissed cause he called her a bitch. big deal, how many times has she called him a prick, asshole, dick, and every other nasty male word that i can think of. Again big deal. My major bitch is that she won't talk to me. i used to call everyday and i would be lucky if i talked to once every two weeks. G is saying it's cause she's busy, what..it takes her two weeks for her to return a phone call, and heck, she doesn't even return it, its cause i manage, by the grace of god, to catch her on the phone. I'm just tired of trying to maintain a friend ship that she doesn't want...

I had another friend, years ago, once she left her husband she didn't want anything to do with me and it was really apparent, so i gave her an easy out, I told her that i know that she was going thought some stressful times and and that as her friend i wasn't going to make any demands on her and that when she needed me she could call on me, that was 8 years ago now, and she hasn't called me yet. and that really hurt, giving someone who i thought was my best friend at the time that kinda out knowing that she would never call me, god that really hurt, and it still does.

Dammit when I'm some ones friend i give them my all, I would move the stars and the planets themselves for my friends, and no one realizes that. and it hurts, god it hurts to be thrown away like that. G was trying to make excuses for C and i couldn't take it anymore, I gave her easy out too. I didn't want too. I didn't want to be hurt like that, I was trying to end it on my terms so that i wouldn't get hurt again. I don't want to sit up for nights on end crying like i am now, cause i know that she isn't going to call.

She is just going to use this arguement between her and the BG not to call me. Thats ok. I can deal with that. It just..... really hurts....

K. now i have to go and blow my nose.

and don't worry, i'm going to be fine, I always am, I just had a bad day.

thanks for letting rant, I just had no one else to talk to about this

TTFN